Another rainy day,

fareeeweeeellllllll...

2008-10-30T18:08:54Z

MOVED.

Only if I love you enough, you'll get the url. Bye

straight to hell

2008-10-10T03:44:50Z

To the idiot who took my handphone and the money in my wallet (I'm not sure if you're the same person), you will die a slow, terrible and tragic death. Which, I hope will be soon. If you're a J2, you will fail your A'levels and become a toilet cleaner. I wish you harm.

with lots of love,
Lorry

And to whoever who returned my wallet, thank you!
Oh and happy seventeenth Izza, I love you babe!

I fall into you

2008-09-30T12:14:30Z

Hey! Since promos are over, there's no reason to feel guilty at all that I'm posting! :D So I can't actually say I've survived promos until I get back the results and hell am I dreading them. Goddd, I feel so restricted and every single inkling of happiness seems to be running away from me. This period would be considered much more 'slack' since all we have to focus now on is only oral presentations and stupid Chinese A'levels. More reason to stop pitying myself for having chosen junior college and just enjoy the last few months of the year right. Yeah I can't help that that stupid self pity feeling, whatever, I'll force it away. It will go away eventually, it will. It better. I realise I don't get pre menstrual syndrome, I get post-ms more often. hahaha weird but true, I guess its because I know I'm more prone to flare up before my period comes and during it, that I know how to control my emotions. But once its gone, I lose control and vent my fustration on anyone. This poor innocent girl, who doesn't know me at all, had to tolerate my nonsense this morning over a phone call. You know how I just hate it so so much when people call me and ask me who am I, when they called me in the first place. To piss me off even more, you just have to ask "who are you?" like manners hellloooo? Gosh, okay maybe it's just me. I don't know why I am so angry hahaha okay tolerance lorry. And I miss a whole lot of people, you drift so far apart that even though there's so much to catch up on, little bits of it become unimportant that theres nothing to talk about anymore...

I had such a bad morning today. But its all okay now, because I'm looking forward to a better morning tomorrow, breakfast with Cham Shuenling, like finally! haha although I did saw you once this week, we still have a whole lot to catch up on, you'd better not oversleep tomorrow morning Rachel!! haha plus I have Gilmore Girls to keep me company tonight :D since Mr Idham shah is celebrating raya tomorrow. I'm starting to get used to you not being around so much yay so I won't I miss you so much anymore. hahahaha just kidding, you know I always do. Can't wait for tomorrow night also because I have no idea what's going on and I'm not even gonna try guessing! Remember that banned word, it'll lose its meaning if its used so often and and and I'll get 5 bucks or one-sixth of a new dress everytime you use it. hahahaha to everyone, have fun and enjoy yourself during Hari Raya okay!

Okay must think happy thoughts now, push aside everything else. These few days have been filled with more music, guitar hero (the controller, not the guitar haha i know right how pathetic), dvds, mamamia!, extreme chocolatey horlicks ice cream topped with mini oreos and fruity (I forgot the flavour) ice cream topped with milo at ICC and dance practice for open house. I haven't actually properly gone out, like to shop. And daddy should be coming back soon! This time, I'll properly like plan a schedule so that I can hang out with him. I want December to come so so sooo badly, Bangkok and Americaaaaaa I'm so excited. Christmas is going to special, I promise. Omg, since promos are over, I want more movies, more books, more music, more sleepovers, more clothes, more pictures, and more time to do stupid stuff like tann at sentosa with Tasha or drink teh-chino with cheese tosai or chocolate-cheese prata at 3am with ruuul, I like. More okay?

I miss you two like fuck, seriously. Please make time for lorry.

myrunawayworld @ 2008-08-03T02:37:00

2008-08-02T18:37:50Z

Leave a comment here and I'll..

1. Tell you why I befriended you.
2. Associate you with a song / movie.
3. Tell a random fact about you.
4. Tell a first memory about you.
5. Associate you with an animal / fruit.
6. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
7. In return, you must post this in your own LJ.

myrunawayworld @ 2011-12-30T20:08:00

2008-07-17T12:29:37Z

100% Friends Only
Comment to be added

Wanna meet the most stupid person on earth?

2008-07-09T12:27:18Z

Hi, my name is Loretta, I got a U grade for general paper (just imagine how fucked up I feel?)
And I can't control my emotions.

Still wanna be my friend?

Wrap me up in all your love

2008-07-02T13:07:20Z

Never in my life has anyone made me develop so much hatred for their existence. Yeah its that bad. You disgust me. So I'd prefer you gone, deleted, erased from my life. Forever. I don't want to play ANY kind of role in your life anyway. Never did, in the first place.

School has been tolerable. Term 3 = prom, teachers' day, eom, study, more of your sickening face, bio spa.... = busy, busy, busy = deprived of sleep = irritable. It's only because of people like fuzzy, zakiah and tara, that I can survive. Anyway, I had a lot of fun during the picnic on sunday. Probably the first time in months that I felt happy without there being a reason. But it dissappeared the first thing in the morning the very next day. hahaha I've to change my attitude towards life now now now. My life doesn't suck, no it doesn't. I'm not trying to convince myself, I'm just stating what is true hahaha. Okay, here's a picture. I have to finish p&p soooon!

L!

2008-06-25T10:42:31Z

The Letter “L”

“L” is the letter that represents action. The person with this letter in their name is a self-starter. Motivated and energetic, they are able to work in groups or alone.

Always on the go, they seem to pass life by without even looking at it, but this is a myth. They live life as completely as they can. Savoring all aspects of life more quickly than most, they go from one aspect of life to another, just as a bumblebee goes from flower to flower. It seems the bee does not look at the flower even though he is always aware it is there. People with the “L” in their name enjoy life while living it to it’s fullest.

Generous to a fault, their kindness in giving should be envied by all. In today’s world, that can be seen as an error in ways rather than a good quality. If there is a charity in need, they are there to help.

Although they seem to be blindly going through life they are in complete control. Being in charge means a lot to them. When the “L” is not in charge, you see one unhappy person. They know they have executive ability and execute it well. Being honest and fair with those in positions lower than theirs earns them wonderful reputations. This means a lot to the “L” because it is one of the guidelines of their lives.

Talented individuals, they excel at anything they choose to do.

Generally they are unbiased and are willing to listen to any new ideas that may come their way. Because they are so well adjusted, they do not feel it necessary to believe theirs is the only right way of thinking. This is reflected in the fact that they are willing to use others ideas because they make them their own.

“L’s” love to travel and are right at home on the road. Getting bored with staying in one place long, they would rather be doing something different.

Negative “L’s” are deceitful and cruel. Not caring for anyone else, they want everything their way. When their way is not possible, they can go into tyrannical rages.

hahahahaha last line, hahah bewareeeee

#76779

2008-06-23T16:01:14Z

Okay, I'm sorry.
I lead a wonderfuuuuuul life. I have to start appreciating what I have, seriously..

http://www.discoverychannel.co.uk/video/index.shtml?bcpid=1396519123&bclid=1400530509&bctid=1400545723

see that, I'm not thaaaaat small ok!

he's praying for a doorway back into the life he wants

2008-06-19T14:51:36Z

See what I mean by unproductive? I have chubbier cheeks, my hair is screwed up, and my eyes are shrinking hahaha

Nights with hongkong cafe's tehpeng (its the only thing that keeps me awake now, I'm immune to the rest), coffee and green tea pocky, belle and sebastian, date ball and never ending bio notes, till 4 or 5am. Today, I barely managed to survive 2 hours of sleep because of photoshoot duty in school at 8am (haha but I still had fun with Ama.) All this, and the end product? sigh

Anyhow, hi there, I'd like to be friends with you, nothing more (yet).
I wish you were here with me, to pass the dull weekend.

study (xinfinity)

2008-06-17T12:25:41Z

I'd rather sit for O'levels 100 times, than sit for the A'levels once. The screwed up thing is that it has only been six months, and I hate it so much, its exhausting, seriously.....and they say the time in junior college is one the best years of their life. And its not like there's an alternative, I'm quite sure the poly route is as stressful, no? Screw the stupid system. I'm going to try pursuading my mum to let me sit for SATs (not saying thats its much easier though, I have no idea)

Anyway, honey dew and honey stars with Ameerun and Soek Khern, I really miss it, we should do it more often okay! "sk, sk, darlinggggg" hahaha darling ah, cld I please have pictures? (;

Type your cut contents here.Name 20 people you can think of now :
1) Natasha
2) Russell
3) Soek Khern
4) Ameerun
5) Fuzzy
6) Nathalie
7) Tara
8) Khai
9) Qahar
10) Izza
11) Stephanie
12) Sarah
13) Sabri
14) Shila
15) Kimberly
16) Bryan
17) Zakiah
18) Joel
19) Hakim
20) Supanee

How did you meet #4 ?
Amee! We were in the same class for the longest time, ever since primary 2 which makes that 9 years! I love you honn, you always make me smile!

What would you do if u never met #1?
Natasha. I wouldn't have been able to find someone similar or good enough (for me, hahahaha) to be my best friend. Probably suffer alone... hahahaha

What if #9 and #20 dated?
Qahar and Supaneee? hahahahahahaha you'll never know, but I doubt so ah. Qahar wld be too crazy for supanee, but then again, Supanee is quite crazy haha

Will #6 and #17 date?
Probably hahahahahahaha but Nathalie has found her other half, and that house captain belongs to me! Nat also belongs to me haha no I don't allow you 2 to be together.

Describe #3.
Soek Khern. hahahahaha mushroom, I don't know how that came into my head, I think its because she calls herself mushroom haha she's the cutest girl on earth, she'll listen and laugh and its rare to not see her light up.

Is #8 attractive ?
Khai. hahaha yeah he is, I heard his name many times when I asked girls who their eyecandies were. Don't be so proud ah haha

Describe #7 .
Tara. Pretty, down to earth, she likes to laugh and rub my tummy hahahahaha okay that was funny because i pictured it in my head (I'm a reallllyyyy visual person, you see.) okay shut up, its partly due to the lack of thrills in mj that I'm so deprived that I get thaaat easily amused.

Do you know any of #12 family members?
Sarah. Her mum is a famous coook in Singapore? haha and that her brother is cute.

What would you do if #18 confesses to you that he/she likes you?
Joel. hahahahaha nah, he likes pretty girls.

What language does #15 speaks?
Kimberly. hahahaha gibberish, when we poke her. So cute right!

Who is #9 going out with?
Qahar. I have no ideaaa. He finds a lot of people hot though (even guys, hahaha)

How old is #16 ?
Bryan. He's my cousin btw. 17.

When was the last time you spoke to #13?
Sabri. hahaha uhh before school closed.

Who is #2 favorite singer?
Russell. hahaha hmmmm, he listens to good music. I don't know singer, but he's fav artist could be Belle and Sebastian? Russell am I right? Tell me! ahh you'd probably have a range anyway haha

Would you ever date #4 ?
Amee. hahahaha I don't mind! AMEE YOU ASK ME OUT I SURELY GO ONE.

Would you date #1?
Natasha. YES I WILL SHE'S SO HOT, if I'm a male, I'd definitely go for her.

Is #19 single?
Hakim. No, he's not, haha too bad for you.

What is #10 last name?
Izza. hahaha Zainuddin, aren't I smart?!!? hahaha

Would you ever be in a realtionship with #11?
Steph. hahaha steph has high expectations, nah she wouldn't choose me hahahahaa

School of #3.
Soek Khern. Chij katong convent primary, Chij katong convent secondary (this is all that matters, because she met me! hahaha)

Where does #6 live?
Nat. Ooh people do actually stalk her. hahahaha too bad nat, simei!

What is your favorite thing about #5?
Fuzzy. hahaha I love how she's always concerned/wants and tries to listen to my longgg stories, even though she has really short attention span.

Describe #20?
Supanee! hahaha she's so cute! She's thai! And she's just really really cute!! And really lovable supaneeneeneenee!!

Look what I've found to entertain myself hahaha keh, studystudystudy.

myrunawayworld @ 2008-06-12T03:35:00

2008-06-11T19:37:54Z

Should I even keep this journal? Nobody even reads it, since nobody ever comments haha I might delete it soon anyway, I don't exactly like how a journal's public, defeats the whole purpose. oh well. insomnia urgh this always happens, thats why I always look tired when I'm out.

Oh and I don't have caller id, so when you call, I won't know so I wouldn't be able to call you back, so you might as well just text me. Bye!

peace and quiet

2008-06-08T08:07:45Z

The one day I feel like staying home, curling up with a book and have my favourite music blasting out my speakers, I have to be in the company of my closest friends, acquaintances, people who I feel weird around, school mates, ex school mates, their boyfriends, their girlfriends and people. I usually don't mind crowds but today, I am just not in the mood.

But I'll still go and I'll come back home ending my day with "I had fun."

edit:

And I did have fun, the period didn't ruin it all, thanks to the familiar faces. Fuzzy, my ultimate friend, 10, 20, 30 years down the road, even when we're like 60 or 70, I wouldn't mind hearing you whine "Lor! why did you cut your nails! I didn't, because I want you to do french manicure for me!" I love you fuzzy, I hope you like the present!

hahahahahaahahahaahha I think this picture is damn funny, I love all of you

Suck and blow, and I got to sit next to Kai Boon/Vivian/Hot dancer/the girl people in school see and say "Oh I think Vivan is really pretty", jealous right?! hahahahaha TOO BAD!

hi nat, i miss you.

Okay see you.

whereee?

2008-06-05T17:43:51Z

Why d'ya have to be so cute?
It's impossible to ignore you
Must you make me laugh so much
It's bad enough we get along so well

(deleted text) I decided it was quite redundant haha but doesn't mean anything, no haha

yay pictures! photobucket finally decided to work!

Zara kids! hahaha even the sunnies go with them! But they were tiny! They ran out of 13-14 years sizes.

Fuzzy's bbq this sunday i cant wait cant wait cant wait! yay! hahaha

and this one in its normal size, because I love the both of you (although I still feel uncomfortable whenever we're the only three, I don't wanna be in the wayyy)

Okay, I shall be going now! Good night!

Lovers on the carousel won't ride forever

2008-05-29T10:15:42Z

Hello all who reads my livejournal! I didn't know you guys bother to read it actually haha I thought it was rather umm.. unknown? hahaha well drop me a comment so I'll know who comes here okay! :D The past few days have been treating me well, yay. I have to really thank Russell Chan Fan He for waking me up. I've been looking at everything negatively ever since I came into jc, this whole new phase of life is obviously not smooth sailing at all, so I guess I'll have to enjoy while I'm at it, because it'd just be stupid to run away (haha I say it as though I have a choice).

I've been happy (which I partly feel is because theres no more school for the next three weeks). Monday was lots of fun with Zakiah and Atiqah. How I wish I was a kid again, or if not smaller in size(hahaha no not really, joke srzly), then I can wear alllll the Zara kids clothes which are a whole lot cheaper and cuter. I saw Ameerun at Bishan! haha it really made my day catching up with you! I miss all the hugs (that come so easily, I have to mention) we get almost on a daily basis in kc, really. Okay, look forward Loretta, start now. Anyway, GSS, I have to stop spending money on myself, I have to get presents!

....and study. Mid years, I'll totally own you (haha I wish)

OH YES, HAPPY 17 FUZZY YOU KNOW I'LL JUST FREAKING DIE W/O YOU IN MJ, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH YOU HAVE NO IDEA. HAVE FUN BEING 17 OKAY! (one of the last few years as a teenager. It'll be so scary to be an adult) CANT WAIT TILL SATURDAY! LOVE YOU XINFINITY!
(I'll upload pictures when that stupid photobucket starts working)

then I lose my mind

2008-05-23T03:23:15Z

I'll tell you whats going on okay

1 I don't know where she is
2 I never know what I want
3 I'm not nice
4 I'm conforming to someone I don't want to be
5 I feel stupid around you
6 I don't fit in
7 I need money
8 I want to shop
9 I'm not myself at all, especially when I'm tired

See how I only care about myself? See how everything starts with "I", I'm a self centred, self absorbed bitch. I want to change, but I don't know how to. It sucks seeing yourself change, and you just cant do anything about it. I don't know when this person in me would get out of my head. I don't know why yall bother to be my friend. Amirul's right, I'll only have superficial friends. Or maybe, I'm just everyone's superficial friend, right? Don't even bother denying it.

immybestfriend

2008-05-16T14:27:54Z

Must study, must study, must study.
Expo coffee bean, you're gonna be my new home.

On the other hand, I miss you best friend. Sleepovers soon!!

this was the ending plea

2008-05-11T19:59:15Z

I am taking forever to start this entry haha thats because I really have no idea what to talk about.

This week is like a birthday week, on thursday it was Bryan, Gaya, Clara, Gaya and Sabri's birthday, Sang's birthday on Saturday, Mother's day yesterday (I do realise that does not fall under birthday but wth) and today, since its already wayyy past midnight, Mummy's birthday. So Happy Birthday all, and Happy (beleated) Mothers' Day. love you xinfinity!

Apart from everyone being all moody and urgh about everything this whole week, Drillbrit Taylor with Qahar, Khai and Tara, Birthday dinner with Bryan, Kimberly, Tara and Russell and the family bbq we had on Saturday, made up for it. Catching up with Belle on saturday realllyyyy made my day, you know how long and hard it was for me to get through the week without complaining at all and then finally she comes along understanding exactly how I feel. In Mj, I feel so restricted, I really do, it's suffocating. I'm really jealous of her, because she gets to be in KC relief teaching and I'm stuck at where I am now (not that mj is bad, I just miss kc a lottttttt!) Seeing her mark the summaries for the MYE English paper omg that exam test paper, it sounds damn stupid but it made me miss KC so so sooo much more. Maybe I'm feeling like that only because of the whole pms thing, but then again, I'm not suppose to let that be an excuse (right, Nathalie? imy btw) It's not insecurities this time, but me not being myself. I'm a totally different person it sucks. I think I feel like that sometimes because my closest friends aren't around me and its them that actually make me who I am, who I want to be, who I enjoy to be. No more feeling that empty happy feeling, its like being happy now, has to have a reason. And its just at times like this, I really feel better off being alone (if not people expect you to give them a reason for feeling like that, thinking they are the cause of it).

On a lighter note, studying at the expo is soo condusive I'm loving it haha, I like the times I get to be alone. Oh and I'm running out of music to listen to, my music is always on repeat its getting quite boring. I've been listening to the songs I used to listen to last year, and they're really bringing back memories, and that same feeling. Gosh you have no idea how much how muchhh I miss it. Please tell me I'm not the only one who feels like that.

I think thats for the best

2008-04-27T18:09:04Z

Okay, I can't believe I'm actually updating when I hardly have the time to finish all of my work. I'm finally done with PI draft 4, I had to redo everything all over again because of the switch to modernisation. I cannot find substantial information on convent history in Singapore online :( oh wellll, I'm already done anyway! haha I'm happy now! I have to start on chemistry soon. I cannot wait till thursday! Another 5:05pm day gone! :)

I have to stop "getting use to it", I have to get use to it right now! I have to stop comparing, I have to start appreciating. I have to stop complaining, I have to start accepting. I have to stop letting my emotions take over me, I have to start learning. I have to stop being afraid, that I really really have got to stop. Priorities, Loretta, priorities. Yeah from now onwards, I'm not gonna be afraid.

Council training camp for the past 2 days was helll, but I'm really glad I've this bunch of people, or rather, councillors, to work with, and I do mean it. Number 6! haha can you imagine? Walking to OCH for night walk and then we had a fast march back to college in the middle of the night, from changi to pasir ris! We reached mjc at about 3ish? After debrief and all we only managed to sleep at 0430 and we had to report at 0845 the next morning. I was close to dying during the talks. And I've got to thank Kelly and Jun Kai, thank you so so much, if it wasnt't for you guys, I don't think getting in would have been possible. It's sad that yall are stepping down in two days, wth! But anyhow, thank you! Anyway, Camp took up most of my weekend, I've been having investiture rehearsals everyday after school, we have 120 investiture door gifts to be done by wednesday and I have Chem spa skill C test tomorrow, Gases consolidation quiz and Bio retest on tuesday. And its only the beginning.

Yeah quote my mum, "you have no life."
I'm really gonna miss floorball, especially training with you guys! (although it was only 3 times! how pathetic)

Tasha, Radeya, Fuzzy, Tara, Nat, Izza, Soek Khern, Rachel, Carisia, Siming, Clarissa, Sum Yi, Sang, Amee, Ally, Mel, Dorothy, Minal, Christine and Victoria. I really really really miss yall.

rah

2008-04-13T06:14:59Z

I'm screwing everything up and I mean every single thing.
I feeel like slicing my head through the blades in the fan, gosh wouldn't that be the greatest feeling ever yay

brighter

2008-04-05T06:35:37Z

Everything is coming to me, giving me secret hidden messages right in my face, here and there. Two weeks before my rally, I turned on my iPod, and "it won't be long" started playing. The night before my rally, I turned on 'what I'm listening to' on messenger, and out popped "what I'm listening to - Call it off by Tegan & Sara" But I can never be oblivious to 'signs' like these, the typical superstitious believes that Chinese always believe in, runs in my blood. Like how you can't cut your fingernails at night because its bad luck, how when you have a sneezing fit someone is thinking/missing/cursing you, how when your right eye twitches something bad is gna happen, or vice versa.

On a lighter note, daddy is back from Dubai! I have to catch up with lectures and tutorials this whole weekend, because of all the stoning and the rally dominating my mind I couldn't concentrate. I couldn't help it, I just couldn't stop worrying. But now that its over, there should be no excuse to failing my chem and maths test this week. And I'm sorry, everyone, anyone who had to listen to me whine ramble grumble, those few weeks before my rally. I would have died if no one was listening so thank youuuu, really, to Sarah, Tasha, Ken, Steph, Fazall and Daniel especially. You have no idea how much your help helped.

I was running all over Singapore yesterday. From MJ to KC to collect my testimonial, to MJ again, to Kallang for J2 training (which was like kc flb training all over again, one word for me: demoralising), and back to MJ for TGIF. I bet I looked like shit, I was so tired I don't even remember who I talked to.

I'll tell you a secret though,
I don't know how to feel, I don't know how its suppose to feel like.
I'm confused and I'm sorry. I never fail to be the most indecisive bitch ever huh fuck

myrunawayworld @ 2008-04-02T20:06:00

2008-04-02T12:11:37Z

two words: fffffkkkkkkkkkkkking hell.

19!

2008-03-26T13:57:36Z

I can't find the time to sleep, what more post but this is too good to miss out on.
Sarah actually going crazzyyyy over a guy, usually she'd just roll her eyes HAHAHAA.

sarahhh. says:
oh and you know what?
sarahhh. says:
everytime i see him in school,he smiles
sarahhh. says:
like this --> (:
sarahhh. says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Ghost figures of past, present, future haunting the heart says:
WTH
Ghost figures of past, present, future haunting the heart says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
sarahhh. says:
REALLY!
sarahhh. says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

19 okay 19!!!!!

myrunawayworld @ 2008-03-11T12:42:00

2008-03-11T04:44:59Z

I want to put on weight
I want those nutrition bars
(Carltin bars is it? You know those that Regina George in Mean Girls ate? Yess I need them)

7877355 = 26669464 277

2008-03-06T15:05:15Z

I think I have this thing with numbers. Throughout January and February, I've always been seeing 11:11 whenever I checked the time. These few days, I've been seeing 2:22pm, 3:33pm, 4:44pm, 5:55pm in a rowwww, its getting freaky. hahaha ohh and today, I have 888 comments all together on Friendster.

Funniest nonsense ever,

kentona says:
cos you took awhile to reply
kentona says:
are you sleeeeeeeeeeeeepy?
Ghost figures of past, present, future haunting the heart says:
you tooook a LONG TIME to reply okay!
Ghost figures of past, present, future haunting the heart says:
not me
kentona says:
HAHAH cos i went to hug my pillow for a while

hahaha wth! I get so amused so easily haha
Anyhow, school's been treating me well. Okay, see youuuu!